pple around me, and myself, are somehow in a bad situation right now. but i believe everything will be fine after sometime. remember those happy moments, and forget those bad ones, miss those who have left you, but enjoy the life you have right now too. it's impossible for pple to forget someone who has been so dear to you, but since there's no way to turn back, we just got to accept it.
and i really hope i can be able to do it. there's no use looking back anymore, we just got to move on. (:
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nina pierced her tongue, and mr lee pluck his wisdom tooth! both of them can't speak clearly, and i actually found that very funny. haha. nina's piercing was ouch! and the stud looks kind of too big for her tongue. lol. she's like using listerine for every now and then, jac thinks her teeth may even be corroded. ^^
tongue piercing sound and look real disgusting to me, lol. and i don't actually like it. i think jac's idea of naval piercing sounds better~ haha.
off to dinner~!
i'm still thinking of you.(:
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i'll be praying for you.till this minute, this second, i still can't allow myself the face the fact that she's gone. i regretted standing so far away when i actually knew she was dead, lying there alone. i didnt even have the guts to go up to her, and pat her. i feel so useless, i thought i loved her alot, i thought i could do anything for her. and in the end, i couldnt even be brave and go up to her.
the place where she died, i haven't went near it yet. i couldnt bring myself to. i can't stop thinking about her, unless i find something to do. i thought i was alright, i have stopped crying since ytd night, when i was out at amk with my mum to watch harry potter. adn i didnt know i was so weak. met my auntie, and she said she wanted to talk to me about feifei, and i broke down immediately.
i think i just need some time to forget about this, but i doubt that it's possible. she will always be inside my heart. it's impossible to forget all those happy moments we spent together. her pitiful face when she did something wrong and wanted something to eat. like what all my aunties and cousins have said, i just hope she's feeling better now, for she's not suffering any longer. i love you, forever.
maybe, i have to talk about happier things to cheer myself up.
i had my gymnastics competition on wednesday, and i am really happy that i didn't disappoint myself. this four years of training, with the school looking down on us, disapproval for everything we did, i am really glad we were able to go through it. i didnt fall at all for my beam, and that's a great achievement for me. and as for my floor, it's good enough since i got 5.25. at least i didnt forget my routine, and i actually got the highest score k! lol. and my vault, i was reall happy cos i was able to jump over it on my own. i couldnt do it in sch, and it was the same when i was practising just before the competition. i cried when i jumped over it on my second try! cos my first was really a total disaster. =D
what's next, racial harmony day on friday! we got to wear ethnic costume! it was really fun, and i guess images speak louder than texts! :)
ta-da! here's miss shirlynn! ^^
the ever so pretty clar! (:
and there's ME! haha.
my lovely jac! <3
jiaying and me(: pretty in pink!
2 chinese, 2 indians and 1 s'porean. lol.
cheese(:
shir's that Ah Fu in Doraemon! lol
chenying and jac. odd pic. lol
pretty, but nt successful! =(
always ready for the cam~!^^
the 5 pretties<3
(:
guess who's who? lol.
jac the white indian like bird head curry! haha^^
WAH~ look, what's that!
Oh, you thinking what i thinking?
WOW! it's 4e3. the you know, the smartest, prettiest, cutest cheeling's class!
fine, that's lame. self entertainment needed to lift my mood. (:
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21 July 07, i've lost you.
i can't believe that you're gone. the 7 years we've been together. you were always there for me, accompanying while i am alone at home, listening to me when i really have got no one to turn to, and following me everywhere just for snacks. and now, w/o any warning, you left me behind.
you will always be remembered, i love you. and i am truly sorry.
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i'm really glad to have great friends around me. and i can't afford to lose them. they gave me lots of support, laughter, and a listening ear. i may not have many many friends like others, and maybe we don't go out often, but i really appreciate them for listening to me and comfort me when im sad. we cry together, laugh together, it's my pleasure to befriend all of you! haha.
great day with the 4 girls. finally my 3rd time eating at subway. lol. and the bio session there was, great. lol.
and chenying, dun bully my jac anymore. seeing her get hurt, makes me sad. lol.
dear, you dun jealous k, i still love you! haha.
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i can't really describe what i was feeling during gym today. i was damn angry and sad about the gym comp thing. im really upset with mrs keong. it was her who wanted us to join the comp in the first place, and now she didn't want nina to join the comp alr! like, what's wrong with her! we didn't want to compete in the 1st place, and after the psychoing, we said fine we'll join, and now what? just kicking nina out of the comp cos she didnt come for training for quite a few times. at least she got her routine planned half way! mrs keong sub her with another who doesn't even have a routine la! where's the logic!
and i think every coach has the responsibility to tell their own students about whether they are in the comp or they are kicked out. they arent supposed to expect the other students to notify her about this matter lo. she didnt even dare to tell nina in the face and she act like there's actually nothing happening.
nina went for the gym training, and she is worried for the comp too! mrs keong just let her sit at the side w/o doing anything, wasting her time. if she really didnt want her to be in the comp, she should have told her before, not just allowing her to sit there and rot lo. plus, nina and us only knew about this today and a few days back, like wth, it's 6 days to the competition and she's doing this.
i think we've done enough for gym alr, we shouldnt even be training right now. we shouldnt even be having CCA. O levels are here soon, and when other students need not go for their CCA, we still have to train like hell? and, what's the results? getting kicked out of the comp? the school doesn't even care if we went to competition or not. like what jasmine said, we are not going to the comp for the school, or even our CCA, so what's the point. nobody ever cared how much efforts we put in, and teachers think that all pple in gym are bad students. like wtf!
i lost control today, and i cried like hell. i just can't stand this unfairness. i was totally angry with mrs keong, that i was shivering the whole time lo. i've really lost my passion and interest in this thing, and i feel really stressed. i don't even feel like joining the comp now. like it's a total waste of time.
enough of that, and let's look at some pictures! i just got hold of some photos of babies from my sis! some are from this year's CNY, and some are from ashley's 3rd bday on 26/6! omg, she's 3! haha.
CNY'07!
The End.
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